o i ruined it.. I ruined the marraige i ruined my wifes trust and eventaully the trust of my kids.. inj tragic decision.. I writing to as a message that probably doesnt need to be told to people to most of the people but i it might as well be told to some of you . curious folk and a other looses.. like me..i say that as a statment heart thumping truth a matter of fact..I have eventually exepted..

Phone call day Its friday Phone call day.. Phone from the mcdonalds in branson. Total call lengh 3-4 min.. My oldest stared back at school.. Gossh I am proud. hes big and not much to complain about with him. he is patient with me. as i Grasp at straws sometimes.  can imagine how it looks as i flounder to try as still be as hero a cool guy as I make acall  solo in the booth at the 1 of 3 mcdonalds in Missouri, I use free wifi and make the most of my money with unlimted soda refills. ( iknow its killing my teeth) Somewhere my phone is lost again. My story is extra tragic to a level that i often cant cope with with any sort of patience..  the result and fallout i deal with is that my ex got the car.. in the divorce ans was awared the sole legal custody.. I could work.. pay to a massive hit as i had to find work i could walk too... she moved 900 miles away.. when they tell you that the wife cant move out of state.. its not true if you are pennysless to stop it or beating yourself up if she tells you its best for the kids you do what ever to stop feeling the shame of you mistake